SEW MY TIME!: Valentine's dress V8742 and Happy 30th to me!!!!

SEW MY TIME!: Valentine's dress V8742 and Happy 30th to me!!!!: V8742 So, I finished my Valentine's dress in time to wear with my three Valentine's! My hubby and our two boys.. My husband really made ...

Grateful for my sweet Omi :)

Oh...how I love my Omi...

when I feel like no one else cares,

like I'm all alone..

no matter the time of night,

or what day it is,

he always is only a text away.

Work got rough,

sent him a text...

as he responded,

only a hour after it was sent,

I smiled

then I read a little further,

after all the positive words,

checking in to see if I was okay..

he says ...

"I'm in Istanbul".

Crazy!!!! Even miles away from me

He is still looking out for me...

its one thing that L never got,

that it was never that I had 

weird expectations of when he would show...

I just got tired of him ALWAYS

showing up so far after everyone else...

even when he was the one the closes to me

Love me my Omi,

I pray he knows just how much

I love him and appreciate his presence in my life

:) Blessed Aihime

.."the nicest place on the internet"...

http://thenicestplaceontheinter.net/

So these last two days were rough due to some work troubles...

but as always people

THIS TOO SHALL PASS!!

I love how even when I am stressed...

perhaps struggling to hold on,

someone I love will come by 

share something to remind me 

I'm going to be OKAY...

a friend posted this website 
and it made my day!

I am sharing it here in hopes that 
no matter what you are experiencing,

you will know that to someone,

even if only GOD,

you are precious...

and you will be OKAY...

HE will find a way to tell you :)

That you are ok!!

Be Blessed-Aihime

PS if you are dying to know the name of the song, 

it is "I have never loved someone the way i love you" 

 by"My Brightest Diamond". I pasted the lyrics below :)

I have never loved someone the way I love you

I have never seen a smile like yours

And if you grow up to be king or clown, or pauper

I will say you are my favorite one in town

I have never held a hand so soft and sacred

When I hear you laugh, I know heaven's key

And when I grow to be a poppy in the graveyard

I will send you all my love upon the breeze

And if the breeze won't blow your way I will be the sun

And if the sun won't shine your way I will be the rain

And if the rain won't wash away all your aches and pains

I will find some other way to tell you you're okay

You're okay, you're okay, you're okay

You're okay, you're okay, you're okay

Chosing the simplest to stay happy....

One day I found it hard to close my eyes,

it seemed as if the weight of life had me so down,

I wanted more than just to sleep ...

I wanted it all to end.

The weight of living with a body that isn't always well

seemed so hard a burden to bare.

A constant sense of enduring seemed to be all 

my life represented.

And I missed him.

The lover, turned friend, turner lover/friend...

now was no where to be found.

I needed a hug, 

some reassurance,

a smile.

I remember the day it all changed,

after hours of fighting to claim sleep,

my body shut down and rested.

When I awoke it was 1 day later.

Its amazing what 24 hours of sleep can do 

for the body.

I felt refreshed, 

I felt renewed,

but more importantly I felt free

In that instance of waking, 

there were no thoughts of you,

no thoughts of the demands of school,

no sense that any part of me was in pain.

Slowly, as my mind began to clear

the thoughts came rushing in...

tons of obligations...

nerves beginning to pulse with pain.

It was in that moment that I gave it all away...

the need to be respected...

the desire to be loved...

the quest for wealth and prosperity.

I gave it all away for the serenity of the present moment.

I let go of all the "needs" that were holding me trapped

and embraced a new way..

ACCEPTANCE...

APPRECIATION...

of how things were in the moment

and not of how I wanted them to be.

And 2 months later, 

my sleep hadn't improved much,

my health still weighs me down sometimes

but I seldom have those moments of wanting things

 to be over anymore...\

and I'm hoping that letting go of those things which made me sad 

keeps that feeling from returning.

GOD please hear my call....

Sometimes its hard..

real hard to let go of the anger.

I find myself angry that I lost out o my dream

because I spoke out about that which was unethical.

Sometimes the anger come from no where...

other times it is when I am contemplating all that I have sacrificed

to walk that road of becoming a phd...

I thank GOD for being present in my heart,

because it is at those times I remind myself

that my anger proves only one thing

..that I am believing more in the enemies ability to shape my life

than faith that GOD will right all wrongs.

These bruises though raw at times,

are proof that I fought against what what wrong

And when truth and right is on your side...

sometimes the battle takes longer than one might expect.

BUT joy and a resolution will always come in the morning.

Right now I pray for my healing...

the healing of my heart...

the restoration of my faith in people...

a renewal of my faith in myself 

and my ability to overcome people like the ones who

at this very moment stand against me.

I know that my GOD is so much wiser, stronger, and capable than

any evil that should come against me...

I am praying that my heart remains focused on GOD 

and not on what I seem to think I have lost

For the blessings of the LORD always end with a

"yes my child"

A love that lasts...

More now than ever before 

I find myself constantly living in the moment

aware that whether or not my future leads

where I want to go, I'm confident making plans 

won't lead to the end that is best.

Love drifts though in my mind as I lay here in bed

...love that is true..

love that is more than just comfort or ease in access

but the kind that grows with each thought of ones beloved

I want to be loved and believe that it is love

not just when there lies fear that my love might be gone

I want the kind that causes one to wake up

smile on face,

chuckles slipping  from ones mouth

thinking of some wonderful amazing aspect of ones beloved.

Lately, it seems all I can see if love...

the sight of babies make me smile and wave

I want to believe that waiting for the right one will be worth it...

I want to believe that giving it my all with others has proved some point

But att imes like this

when I am tired and laying in my bed 

at night and unmarried and unlone...

I start to regret loving him, caring for him, 

making him a priority even after I learned I was not one.

Here's to love working and lasting forever...

Letting GOD Lead

Wow, its been long since I last wrote here...I've learned a lot since the last post.

First and most important being

I need to let GOD lead.

Its kinda of comedic how one can say

"GOD leads my life"

yet what we really mean is

"I've planned where I want to go and what I want to do...

and if GOD has a problem and puts a road block up

I will consider it"

I used to think I knew what was meant for me.

the one I was supposed to love...

well he turned out to be someone who couldn't love anyone

ESPECIALLY not me!!

I used to think being Dr. Whoever...

would mean that I was honest, trusthworthy, ethical

But then I ran into the evilness that is Kentucky

and I learned that PhD's will allow 

predators, adulterers, liars  

over those who truly care.

But most importantly 

I have learned that I am most happy when helping others

Yes, the money right now sucks

But its nice to be making a difference

Nice to be away from the bitter people

with degrees but no true character

who were trying to shape me into someone I could never respect.

Right now life is good...

and it all started with me on my knees

wholeheartedly praying..

asking the Almighty GOD

to use me to improve the lives of others!!!

And I thank HIM for HIS mercy 

which keeps me from going postal 

when I think of all I endured at the hands of the evil ones.

When I think of how good life is all i can do is smile 

and praise HIS holy name.

Blessed!