The Atheist and I...

Lol, all jokes aside, 
I consider myself to be a pretty serious believer in Christ.

At my core, even if this was to change,
 I still would find it hard

To even consider that some how,
 in some way, this wonderful universe,
 these marvelous bodies and
 the systems that run within them 
are anything but of an intelligent design.

So how is it even possible that I could consider dating an atheist?

To be honest, 
I blame grad school and speed reading...

failure to take out the time to check that one little section 

where we list what our religious views are...

I AM A FOOL!

Now I find myself in this battle,

my conscious says not to be a hypocrite, 

as one who believes in fallibilism...
who accepts that all things may not be what they seem...
and any extreme thought of absolute fact seems premature.

So then why does it even matter

Matter that he is intelligent,
 he is attractive, 
he seems kind

If at the end of the day my 
one belief in the absoluteness of fallibilism

Is gonna keep me from ever seeing 
him as more than a friend

At times like this, I find myself more angry at "the city one"

So caught up in a life of partying 
even notice that he is missing out on

being such a significant part of my life

Time is passing,
moments are being spent,
memories are being made in my life without him
and its all be wasting cause I forced to find in someone else

When my heart really feels I have already found
my other half in him.

I love that I can still love him,
but oh how I hate his selfishness

I hate the way he treats my love
And I hate that I allow him to treat as insignificant
A love so powerful and rare

And I know that even if I waited forever

There would never be a moment where

Mr. Ying would acknowledge me as Mrs. Ying

And we live on happily ever after

So I guess Mr. Atheist isn't so bad after all

At least he see's my worth and is willing to invest in us.

When all the other one seems to truly care about is "he" not "we"