Letting GOD Lead

Wow, its been long since I last wrote here...I've learned a lot since the last post.

First and most important being

I need to let GOD lead.

Its kinda of comedic how one can say

"GOD leads my life"

yet what we really mean is

"I've planned where I want to go and what I want to do...

and if GOD has a problem and puts a road block up

I will consider it"

I used to think I knew what was meant for me.

the one I was supposed to love...

well he turned out to be someone who couldn't love anyone

ESPECIALLY not me!!

I used to think being Dr. Whoever...

would mean that I was honest, trusthworthy, ethical

But then I ran into the evilness that is Kentucky

and I learned that PhD's will allow 

predators, adulterers, liars  

over those who truly care.

But most importantly 

I have learned that I am most happy when helping others

Yes, the money right now sucks

But its nice to be making a difference

Nice to be away from the bitter people

with degrees but no true character

who were trying to shape me into someone I could never respect.

Right now life is good...

and it all started with me on my knees

wholeheartedly praying..

asking the Almighty GOD

to use me to improve the lives of others!!!

And I thank HIM for HIS mercy 

which keeps me from going postal 

when I think of all I endured at the hands of the evil ones.

When I think of how good life is all i can do is smile 

and praise HIS holy name.

Blessed!